Sunday, July 3, 2011

Overwhelmed

Have you ever been so overwhelmed with life that brushing your teeth seems like too much work?
That's how I've felt these past few months, which explains my lack of blogging.  Kaitlyn has been giving us problems, which I think we've solved now.  We would wash her off with a warm washcloth but since we didn't put her in the tub (more things to scrub), she would get a little chilly - she didn't like it.  Anyway, one day she pooped in her diaper and came to get me, and we threw such a big party over it, eating gummy bears and praising her so crazy good that she hasn't done it since.  However, she does take her diaper off when she's napping if it's wet, even a little bit, so we continue to put her down for naps with a onesie OVER her pants.  Sean says she looks like Superman, but we think she just looks like a dork.  Either way, it prevents access to her diaper so it works for us.
Jared has been having trouble sleeping and when we were in Boise a few months ago, his dad heard him sleeping one morning.  Jared's dad has long had sleep apnea and has used a mask at nights - so he know what he was hearing that morning.  We came back and Jared passed the simple apnea test with flying colors - so now he sleeps with a mask.  It took some time to get the right mask and fit and get used to sleeping with it.  In the beginning he'd take a sleeping pill to help him sleep, but now he's got it down pretty well.
Also at this time, Kaity broke Jared's glasses, so he had a major headache/migraine for a week until we could get the new ones.  Needless to say, it was tough with a husband who had a headache and lack of sleep so he kept dosing off.
The biggest thing, though, that's been getting to me is that we're still not pregnant.  I wanted so much to have my kids close.  I loved being so close in age to my sister and going to school with her.  We did so many things together and she is still one of my very best friends.  We've passed the year mark and we're taking clomid (that oh, so lovely drug that made me cry until I was literally dehydrated and couldn't cry anymore.  FYI - that was why I was hiding in Grandma W's basement during the rehearsal dinner for Tyler & Carisa's wedding).  Anyway, it hasn't had the same effect this time around, I've just been nauseous from time to time.  This is our off month, so hopefully we'll get pregnant so I don't have to take the Clomid again.
My boss has been crazy jerkish lately.  He's freaking out that we have 5 vacancies (which is, like, 90% full) but he's never here to fix things or take any initiative himself - he's only really around to stress me out and make me feel like a slacker.  It's not like I haven't hooked a google number to my cell phone so that I'm accessible to our tenants and prospectives even when it's not office hours - oh wait, I have...
Anyway, that is my rant, if you've made it this far, I'm sorry you had to hear so much whining.  I just had to get it out.
Hopefully soon I can post pictures of Kaity's swimming class - so this depressing post won't be forefront.

3 comments:

Sandy Watson said...

Sam,
When the twins started taking their diapers off Steph put duct tape on them. They couldn't get them off anymore. :-)
I'm so sorry about the pregnancy thing. It's so hard. My daughter Shauna has gone through that for years and hasn't been able to get pregnant yet. It's heartbreaking. Hang in there.
Sandy

Sean and Jennie said...

We love you! And kaity does look like superman albeit a dorky one:)

Tammy said...

Sam - I just heard of something new that you could try, My sister took a baby asprin every day after being on all of the clomid etc, and after she started doing that it only took 2 months. Not sure why but when you are at the point where you will try anything- the best thing to do is stop trying it eases the stress so that things work better. Good luck with Kaity!